Heartbroken, simply heartbroken. Never has the bitter taste of cigarettes tasted so sweet nor the sweet taste of alcohol been so enticing.

TL;DR - I was uninvited to a wedding, an invite that meant a lot to me in many ways by my SO. In short I was uninvited for being bipolar, I was judged by my previous erratic behaviour as not being fit to attend despite the fact that I have not had a similar manic episode in over two years.