What the fuck do we do [Rant]

I don't know why I'm still suprised about the verdict but I just thought this time, this time we'lI get em. But nothing changed and that really hit hard this time because it erased the last of the false sericurity that "being respectful and law abiding will protect you". But it's not like you're any better of breaking the law you just cant fucking win. And what are we supposed to do about that ? What the fuck are we supposed to do marching don't mean shit because the people don't listen. Talking to racists is actually less than shit. Although rioting would be really fun y'all all know how it's gonna be in the aftermath "look at those THUGS burning their own city". Don't fucking have a gun and tbh the revolution would probably fail (look at black panthers) Philando Castile literally died for lawfully carrying and you think police wouldn't mown down armed black people and if we strike back in anyway BAM terrorist organization. Cant fucking vote (not that my vote would even mean anything) cant be on a jury. What the fuck am I supposed to do? Do I sit on my ass and wait for the next one. My trump-apologist-turn-the-other-cheek-ass-respectability-politician-ass mom said she's just gonna pray and me and her argued for several hours cause she was denying institutionized racism. I'm just tired .She says I'm bitter and she's right I can feel it setting in I'm losing hope of shit getting better but I feel like I'm too young to feel this way. Does anyone have any suggestions or literally anything slightly less depressing in light of our country once again looking us in the face and saying we don't mean shit. I feel so powerless I guess that's the goal tho, I'm going sleep.