I fail again after 48 days, then something happen...

I hate that type of titles because it makes you click inside xD. I just want to share with you some key aspect I have found on this journey of NoFap. I have to say that I am currently in day 6. Like everyone else this is a personal journey.

My best mark is 48. I am far away from my girlfriend. When I am going to travel or she is going to travel is easier for me to keep my hands away from my pocket. I lose some motivation when I know that I am not going to see her for a while (usually 2 or 3 months).

Risks or consecuences that you can find in NoFap

• I realize that when I am in abstinence there are some situations where my mind usually try to find sexual content. Cause P is forbidden I have notice that I started to look more frequently the ass and boobs of the girls.

• Some women that are not really attractive (and you are sure about it) starts to seems attractive.

• Voyeur behavior can skyrocket. This can be horrible. In some moment I thought about buying an spycam to spy a coworker that I really like. Fortunately I just decided to fap :(. When I look back about it, this was a big issue for me. Voyeur behavior is awful. You have to realize about it in some way. Respect is related with intimacy too.

• NoFap can change your principles in a good or bad way. Like I mention before your body can flourish some unexpected behaviors. If you were fapping when you were depressed now you can't do that. You have to figure it out or find how to solve your depression in other way. I realize that when I was in a discussion with awful output I take the things personal. I was likely to fap to give up and just feel better. Cause we are humans, when you confront yourself in some deep feelings that you dont know how do manage, it really can be very dangerous for your mind. Be concern about why you fap in some situations.

• Fap is usually a scape to something missing that you didn't find during the day or in your live. Learn and ask yourself with total honesty. Why you really want to fap. HALT is the beginning but like I mention before there are a lot of emotional situations and motivations that can skyrocket your needs to fap.

• You can develop more perversions. Like I talk before, I was thinking in Voyeur behavior (shame). Additionally the other day I saw a 13 or 14 years old girl stretching for her gymnastic class and that makes me excited (shame). You have to fight to your monsters. I am sure this feelings are inside us but you have to make prisons inside you to analyze that behaviors and makes them disappear. If you can't makes them disappear, think about all the suffering you can create. Think about your mom realizing about what are you thinking. Is something that will makes you proud? Will be something that you will share with your friends or family? Respect yourself, think about all the other amazing things where you can invest your time. You are going to die some day, think in what you can build. You, like a lot of people in this planet want to make their dreams come true. Make yours and help other people to grow and makes their dreams come true. Respect, respect, respect. If you don't do that, you can be feeding a monster that can someday beat your own ass and makes you go to prison and lose everything that you really love.

• You can become in a better person. Sex is a mystery. Why it exist in evolution? Why was it needed? Fap is not only present in humans. It is present in nature, in other animals. Learn or study why sex is important in evolution. I hear the other day that may be "sex" is the end of evolution. We are creatures that are evolving to creates better creatures but why? because you want to have the best sex with the best creature that you can find. And the "best creature" that you can find is not only related with physical aspects. I don't know what is important to you. Everyone have their own standards but if you follow the NoFap path you will become a better person, because you will learn a lot about yourself. Be aware why. And if you become in a better creature then may be you can find a better "creature" for you.

• May be you are not going to quit fap forever. That is not a risk, that is what usually happens. I think that the important thing is to learn about what is behind every time you decide to fap. When you learn about it you are going to need to play your cards and take decisions to improve your live.

That is all for the moment. Sorry If I made some mistakes in my english. Greetings and keep learning, this is a journey to yourself and your relation with the hole world.