New Here, Kinda Skeptical and Needing Answers

Sorry if the title is a bit, rude or such. But I mostly came wondering for answers. So first a bit of background detail??

I'm an avid writer and chronically numb, have been for years. However, sometimes I can, I guess, 'feel', what the muses, or characters I'm writing for, are feeling as I write and sometime after if I'm still in that head space. This has happened a few times in the past few years, but I mostly shrugged them off and they dissipated. But these two just haven't faded I guess?? I just see the whole ordeal being a tool for writing but I honestly don't know.

So while talking to my friend, who referred for me to reach out to y'all or some shit, I had a breakdown and those two 'muses' were fucking with my head since while I have the reflexes one would experience while having emotions, I just still feel numb.

However after a bad writing session with someone, I just had responses in the background I could hear that weren't my own thoughts, so to say; even feeling those emotions I normally /don't/.

I read the FAQ, and figured I'd ask around here to see if I could find some answers to both sate my and my friend's calm of mind since they referred me in the first place. I'm still a bit skeptical with the whole concept of this, but some information is better than none, right?

Thanks for reading and or taking the time to help!

-Whisper