46 days and miserable.

I'm safe and sober, just need to vent. Thanks for reading.

I'm 42 and boyfriend kicked me out and won't talk yet if this is really the end or not (his house, my things are still there). Staying with parents in a different state and miles from a town. No job or friends or finances. Don't see any possibility of enjoyment or improvement. I know I deserve this, but it sucks.