I could use help on a social level

So, I truly believe God is awesome and so beautiful and mistreated and misjudged in this world.. I truly wanna live for him regarding every field of my life.

But Imnot very stable socially, one day im so funny and interactive and wanna make everyone laugh and talk deeply with people individually and show them that i respect their opinion and give them room to express themselves and truly at then i naturally wanna value them and give them their sense of worth. (this is when im living free with God, feeling that nothing I need to do to earn some love, becaus He the creator of love has loved to the moon and back if you may say😂)..

But, other days i just wanna be quiet and im normally a quiet person.. Then some specific people be so funny and people enjoy their company while im the poor complicated dude at the corner😂

So far, what my short years have showed me that when I allow God to love me, and when i allow myself to accept this love and let my guard down, then i can give and love.. But when im too focused on how people view me, then people view me badly..

So, I know that I must let go ans let God and trust that his love, if let to be comfortable in me will overflow abundantly on others!

But is there anything im missing? Any principles, thought? I really wanna be faithful in my relationships, because people are the most valuable in this universe. Can you suggest anything to help me in this learning journey?

Im 17 and Id love if you recommend me christian books about this criteria and relationships generally .. Id love to read a book that could somehow show me a big view of the whole picture.

Thanks bros!