Hypocrisy

So I met a chick over a year ago. She had a problem with her former boyfriend because he threated her badly, and felt depressed (she was actually harming herself). I, even though I liked her since the beginning, wanted to help her without becoming anything beyond a friend.

Initially it was being good: I made her laugh, made her smile and made her see there are better people around the world. One day she told me she was starting to fall in love with me, I was unable to keep up the friends thing, so I also told her I liked her alot.

There was, however, one problem with us. She, as a "soon-to-be" Jehovah's witness, had this kind of bad thoughts about God being mad at her if she stayed with me (even though she already had a relationship with another guy, which was actually a Jehovah's witness)

I told her I would help her out with this situation, for God's sake I was willing to become a Jehovah's witness just for her... Days passed, we still hanged around, talking on phone, we even made out a couple of times when no one watched us... but then one day she said she was going to visit her former partner, just to "settle things for good".

I felt extremely jealous about this, but I let her do so. She visited him and then suddenly they became "good friends". Updated her Whatsapp status to "best day ever".

My intellectual side was finally showing up again, something was tingling. I knew this would only turn for the worse, yet my dumb loving side didn't let me finish the unavoidable situation...

One day she calls me... telling me she couldn't stop loving her former boyfriend. She told me she would turn into a Jehovah's witness and wanted to be with him. I was devastated, angry, sad... by the time she said "we could still be friends" I just said "whatever" and stopped talking to her.

Few days ago I find out she is not attending their reunions anymore, but that's not the worst part, I found out that she also broke with her former partner... and just 2 days ago she began a relationship with the kind of guy that gives no damn about women and will only use her for sex. Ffs he keeps his ex' pics on his facebook.

How is she now? Apparently she doesn't have a problem now telling everyone about their relationship. She doesn't have a problem now, being with her new boyfriend while in public.

How am I now? I can't stop thinking about her, and can't stop thinking that, maybe it's better if I act like an ass... wouldn't be the first time I get betrayed while being a good guy.