(3 years hardmode) I'm truly cured, The story of my 3 year celibacy, how it ended, and how it will change.

Wow guys,

This is truly good feeling. My most recent streak was 3 years hardmode, and MAN did it have its ups and downs. But ultimately I do feel like my old self again to a certain extent.

First, let me start by saying, this addiction is full-on 100% real, and I'll explain why others think we are absolutely crazy. So roughly 3 years ago, I was the most anxiety ridden, porn obsessed person I could possibly be. I truly don't remember alot of the days as they were so clouded in brain fog, but I do remember never having motivation to study, having extreme anxiety, and my quality of life just being very poor. All of these were obvious signs of a lack of dopamine, or the motivation chemical in the brain. I then went cold turkey and had two, one month streaks, but felt damned I couldn't get anything longer. I then decided enough was enough. And was able to go cold turkey for 3 years, no sex, not even a single touch of my johnny besides taking a piss and hygiene.

Fast forward, to now. Last week, I MO'd. I don't know why I did it, but it I think it had something to do with having 0 success with real women due to me being so uptight about doing hardmode nofap to the point my brain just stopped and said, fuck it, you needa relax, you're cured but don't abuse this shit. I did it, and I felt 0 shame, 0 guilt, 0 remorse, 0 sadness, 0 any negative feelings. Did good come from this session? No. It was literally absolutely 0 change to my mind. I did it and it was done, and I felt the O which was good for 3 seconds, after that, I literally felt like nothing happened at all. I felt normal and went to work the next day and people treated me no different, and I felt no different. It was crazy, at that moment, I knew this was no longer a problem. This is why people who aren't addicted think we're nuts. Because to them, fapping causes 0 change to their bodies besides a little rush from the O and a release of pressure. Today, I actually PMO'd twice, this time with very revealing images and about 30 seconds of a video. What happened after? Nothing. the same exact thing. Nothing happened, nothing changed, I still felt completely fine and even a little more relaxed around other people.

HOWEVER: I will not continue to PMO, truthfully because I know that at a certain point it can become addicting again and ruin several years of my life once again. However, I would love to get a girlfriend that I actually love and care for, and do stuff with her to help bond, and maybe have kids in the future. I will not fap though again, I assure you. I set up my badges and will not reset til as long as this site exists. I love you guys, and there is hope for all of you.

Feel free to ask my questions.