People are interesting creatures

I'm not sure why it is so hard to find a person that wants to put equal effort into something... I've connected with someone online that I'm really into and could see him being my Daddy irl eventually but lately it doesn't feel the same. I was in the ER Friday and he didn't even check on me yesterday or today. I'm sure he'll have a valid reason, but it still sucks to not be important enough to someone to have them care. I can't even get into my little space and forget about stuff right now.