Someone I haven't seen since high school FaceTimed me last night to attempt suicide.

So this guy and I knew each other through middle and high school. We are on and off friends I guess. We had a lot of the same friends but we're never too fond of each other.

Last year, our mutual best friend killed himself. Two weeks later his mother died. It might be the other way around but I don't remember. I don't think that he has dealt with the grief in a healthy way (heavy drinking, smoking crack) and has posted some vaguely suicidal things in the past. That was when we had the only real contact since school.

So last night at about 12:30 I saw that I got a Facebook video call from him and called him back. It started out super normal. We caught up and cracked some jokes. He was clearly very drunk and was drinking the whole time.

The conversation started to take a turn when he brought up how he had talked to our dead friends family members recently. He started rambling about the suicide and his mom's death and how he wanted me to listen very closely.

He kept rambling about how I was always the "best" friend and the last thing our friend ever said to him was along the lines of "fuck you, you should be dead." Then kept accusing me of laughing and thinking all the tragedy was a joke.

Then he pulls out this huge 8 or 9 in Bowie knife and starts saying he's gonna stab himself all the way through the chest. It became clear that he actually planned to do it so I hung up and called the police. He lives in another city now and I didn't know his address or phone number. The 911 operator gave me the number to the police in his town and they were like "we don't know if we can help if you don't know where he is."

So I call him back to try and get his number or address. He answers the call and he's covered in cuts and blood. He's cut himself all up his chest and arms. He showed me his arm which has a giant gash in his wrist that's pouring blood. All he would say was stuff like "dude look I'm dead" and shit. When I tried to get his info he was just like "fuck an address."

This whole time my girlfriend is trying to find any contact info and found his voter registration online. So I gave the number to the cops and they confirmed his address saying that ems was on the way.

The last time I talked to the cops they told asked me what the knife looked like and that he was giving them some story about how someone else did it and was clearly lying. I haven't heard anything else.

Sorry if this is a wall of text or I've provided too much unnecessary info. I don't really know how to feel about this or how to follow up if I even can. The thought of calling him back or anything is terrifying and revolting. I'm shook, angry, disgusted, and I feel bad and want to help somehow all at the same time.

Thanks for listening. This shits fucked up.