I don't know where to turn

Today I, a 20 year old told my family that I've recently been diagnosed with Aspergers. My entire life I've know I was mentally ill and they forced me to shove it away and hide it. Today they told me that I was just "drinking the look-aid" and not to believe the doctors. I'm just heartbroken because for me this diagnosis was a breakthrough. My whole life they told me "why can't I just be normal" that I was acting out for attention. That I just needed to suck it up and stop feeling sorry for myself. I'm no doctor but they are also mentally ill but refuse to believe it. This diagnosis just meant everything to me. I have struggled so hard in school with relationships and friendships to the point of wishing I were dead. I'm just crushed. I also have OCD, (diagnosed) and they said I don't because I don't clean or check doors/knobs etc. mine is mainly the obsessive thought patterns part. I'm sorry if I'm rambling and I'm really sorry if this is the wrong place to post it. I'm just so tired of my Narcissistic Family.