I feel like I've been drugged

(I haven't)

I'm hardly on any medications... for real almost nothing because a few months ago I felt like my meds were poisoning me and so I went off them. Now I'm only taking 100mg Lamictal/day. I had a mood crash last night and have been having suicidal thoughts. Physically I feel like I took a ton of xanax or something. Is what I'm feeling right now some kind of dissociation? Does anyone else feel similar rn or can relate?