Thoughts from this week.

Being a dreamer is hard. I've been back in my emotions again, as I've been evaluating past friendships and relationships. I'm recently out of my undergrad (Music Ed) and I want to continue with a path of performance and jazz teaching, but am struggling to find where to go.

Payroll messed up my paperwork and I didn't get paid today for the past two weeks, of which I worked multiple shifts to make up for the majority of the work force being on vacation. I won't have more than 39 cents in my account until probably Tuesday and that makes me feel uneasy.

I feel everyone around me wants me gone and away from what I've formed here in my hometown. I want to spread but can't find where I'm going to go.

I haven't felt this week since February, during my student teaching. I'm slowly falling away and I don't know what's next.

Here's to it getting better.