I hate my voice. (ranting)

Hey guys. I'm pre-everything and I hate my voice. Like, I like talking (doing presentations in front of a big audience and stuff was pretty much everyday life for me until recently) but I always catch myself getting a really high-pitched voice while talking to people. Afterwards I'm always thinking this: why am I still, subconsciously, trying so hard to be someone (in this case being F) that I am not? I currently have a cold (Yeah, it's not really summer in the UK) and I almost lost my voice but I kinda like it. I know it's wrong and not healthy but yeah... I prefer my sore vocal chords. 😩