Sometimes I feel like my loneliness will kill me. I don't have many friends. I've never been great at keeping close friends because I can be intense and introverted and socially awkward.

I used to be different but the older I get the less people I have in my circle and the few I do hold close cause me such anxiety sometimes especially because I'm in love with one of them and she knows it. I wish like were simpler. I wish I didn't look to other for happiness. How do I start to like myself? How do I start treating myself better? How to you rid these feelings of emptiness and sadness?