As I'm laying in my bed ...

As I'm laying in my bed , one hour after midnight and still awake , having to wake up at 7:30 to go wageslave like every day of the week except Sunday ... Ahhh , the desperation is real . Today was hard as it will be tomorrow and as it will be every day for the rest of my life unless I end it . I'm so damn tired of it , why things have to be like that ? Why so difficult ? What have I done to deserve this ?