After the chain rock&roll suicide event

I know suicide is contagious. Is like a pest worst than AIDS. You can hide AIDS for a long time, but suicide thoughts you can hide them to the very last moment. There you have Cornell boy and Chester dude yesterday. You can toalk about bullying or your new gender identity, but you can not talk about "I always was crazy" theres no jail for gay people, but there's a jail for the insane, there's institutes or pills. You can cope with your sadness when you are teen as a phase, like "I'm an emo, I like The Cure" or whatever. But some people grow up with this thing. Sadness, depression, being raped, being abandoned by their parents. And now this is a rant, I grow up without my father, I like to think that I dont miss his present, that that is just my life. Then, I was abuse. And after a teenager gay phase I like to think that I'm healthy straight. But after all of that... I'm still crazy. When a death knock close to my door I drink a lot like I did tonight.I drink till I pass out. Last year I give my sister my facebook password just in case I commit suicide my family had something to feel me closer. This time I had reddit to rant about, but I know I'm doing this anonymously, I'm crazy and I dont know if theres a suicide anonimuos group, or a crazies anonimous group. What I do know, is that a suicide alone, can hide its suicide in its pocket to the very last