im cant take it anymore

i dont know what to do, i have no family and the only reason ive been allowed to stay is because my dad wouldn't be able to live with himself if i died on the streets although he still treats me like shit otherwise, i'm having trouble even writing about it anymore, i feel so alone and in pain i dont know what do to do talking to strangers doesnt seem to help anymore(:/ then whyd i make a topic here?) i don't know, i cant stop crying because they never stop when im upset, sick, or anything they never stop i've lost all hope they've destroyed my ability to trust and love why are people like this why are they so willing to be like this

my brother sent me this because i would not give him my pain medication and found that he took one instead

shitbrother: I FUCKING HATE YOU [me], STAY WASY FROM ME. i'VE NEVER STOLEN FROM YOU BUT FUCK YOU FOR THINKING SO AND NOT TAKING MY WORD, YOU'RE NOTGETTING A DAMN THING FROM ME FROM NOW ONE shitbrother: I HATE YOU SO MUCH I WISH YOU ERE YU DIDNT EXIST