Starting to get over drugs

Hello, I'm 24 M Syd, I've been a recreational drug user for about 2 years now, I was very anti drug this anti drug that until one day I tried weed. The effects blew my mind, which in turn sparked the interest of other substances and seeing what effects they would have on the human body/mind.

So far I have tried; -weed -speed -mushrooms (tore my relationship apart lol ex couldn't handle her shit. Though I'm glad this happened.) -MDMA -MDA -LSD -cocaine -ketamine -nitrous And other prescription drugs

I'm at the point where I will roll once a year at a rave, I'm getting over the days of recovery waiting for all the neurology upstairs to balance out. iE dopamine / serotonin etc.

Or maybe I'm just a bitch? But hey, I'll admit it... drugs aren't for everyone.

Anyways the point where I was heading with this topic is that I'd rather be the provider for all my friends, bring the best gear for them, set up the bong for them. Load the balloons with nitrous, make sure they don't green out, making sure they have the best time!

I sit back and and watch them, and think.... Why the fuck are they doing this to themselves? But at the same time remaining positive, humble, and the life of the party!!

Has anyone experienced this? Where am I heading ?

Thank you.