Dreamed Edad died, unsure whether to contact

Edad was quite the enabler but the only member of my family who continued to make contact with me after I went legally NC with a very abusive Nmom. I don't think he was able to accept the reality of what happened and he was in a bad mental state, so I ignored most of his messages.

Last night I dreamed that I found out he committed suicide just a few days after sending me a message. Obviously I have no way of knowing if he's actually ok but there were a few times when I truly was concerned for his mental health as the rest of my family seemed to be scapegoating him now instead of me. I know I need to put myself first, but now I'm really concerned that when he dies I'll feel very guilty and wish I'd have tried to get in touch.

What do you think? I feel pretty horrible.