Day 2

Slept like shit last night, restless, anxiety, waking up a lot. So I feel like shit this morning and I'm starting my day 2 hours later than I'd wanted to. Normally, this is a time where I would smoke in order to pick my mood up. It's hard to keep your goals in mind when you feel like dirt and weed just seems like a medication or something you could take to alleviate the feeling. Ugh. I don't feel like doing anything except laying in bed. This is a problem I've had before - quit smoking, but just lay around all the time going online because I feel shitty. I don't really have a point here, I'm just venting. It's only day 2 and i'm losing sight of the motivation and goals. So my goal right now is simply to push through this and not smoke. I've tried to quit many times before, the longest was two months, but I never reached a point where my head felt "right". I would just replace my weed addiction with an Internet addiction. Well anyways, I've got to get to work. Fuck pot.