Type me please!

Question 1- Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind

18, female, about to enter college. I just had a semi-fight with my mom so it's making me feel slightly frustrated. I'm half stressed - but again, when am I not - and I'm thinking about college and life in general.

Throughout this I think I use the word “friend” quite a few times - it might be helpful for me to clarify that I use the word “friend” in a very strict sense, and what I consider a “friend” would probably be considered “close friends” or “best friends” by others - I have to trust them a lot and be willing to discuss my deepest inner fears with them.

Question 2- Look at a random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it

Random photo link

Got this picture by searching “random picture” and picking the picture that drew me to it. It's a rather interesting picture. It's sort of nonsensical - not necessarily in a bad way (as in I'm not not triggered by how weird it is), but it sort of makes me wonder why anyone thinks a miniature tree house on a broccoli was a good idea. If the point of the picture was to juxtapose sizes to achieve the feeling of weirdness it worked, because there’s something off about the picture that bothers me and it’s probably the broccoli.

Question 3- You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favourite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?

Initial thoughts: Shit. Well, what do we do now? Probably a good idea to find out why it’s not working, and then see if we can fix it ourselves. If not, probably a good idea to call for help. Will we make it to the concert in time? Outward reactions: Make sure everyone’s chill and try to take control of the situation if no one’s trying to do so; otherwise, if someone looks like they know more about this, I’ll do whatever I can to help.

Question 4- You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?

For starters, people usually get drunk at a party so I’m pretty skeptical about that statement… I really wouldn’t want to go to an afterparty since they’re pretty loud so I’ll either a) wait until they’re all done somewhere else in the town, and if they’re drunk I’ll drive instead, or b) see if anyone else I know is around the area who can come save me.

Question 5- On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?

Inward reaction: Ehh. I see why you’d think that way, and it probably has its merit (sometimes not though), but there’s a 90% chance I’m not going to change my mind. I’ll probably pick the claim apart in my head, find points that are valid and think about how those work with my beliefs.

Outward reaction: Honestly, depends on how much I care about the claim - if the claim doesn’t clash with a fundamental belief I’ll stay silent; otherwise, I might point out the possibility of something other view. I’d be pretty curious about why they choose to think that. I’d be open to debating with them, but it’s sort of meaningless anyway - at this point I’m debating for the sake of it, sort of for fun.

Question 6- What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?

Keep silent. Unless it’s someone extremely close to me and I feel comfortable enough with them to say pretty much anything in my head, I don’t feel inclined to say anything. I might also discuss it with my friends and talk about/rant about why they think what they’re doing is valid and logical if it’s something that I really care about, but usually I just don’t care enough.

Question 7- What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?

1. If something can’t be explained using facts and general governing principles that make logical sense, you’re doing something wrong. This one came about during a fight with my parents a few years back, when I asked my mom “but why did you think that way?” and she couldn’t give a reply, and then I realized the entire argument was pointless because she literally was going off nothing. This one has been fairly consistent, and I don’t see myself changing my mind on this one any time soon
2. Honesty and loyalty to people I think are important to me, especially if they’ve given me their trust in very important matters and are able to talk about fundamental principles without getting triggered. This probably comes from the way I’ve been brought up by my dad, and the fact that my mom, throughout my middle school years, got me fairly triggered by lying to me about completely meaningless things to appeal to me. I’d rather take hard facts than consoling words.

Question 8- a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else?

I’m a weird mix of traits. I find myself a fairly contradictory person - my friends would describe me very differently from how a normal person who knew me from school would. I do have strong feelings/care a lot about many things and can be extremely loud/use strong words when I talk about those things, but at the same time my friends have called me an extremely logical person and level-headed in times of need. I alternate between being extremely stoic (when I honestly could not give more of a crap because those things are simply irrelevant to me) to passionately arguing my point (when I think those things are important, and I’m comfortable enough with the person I’m talking to). I hate small talk and avoid any social situations in which I would be required to interact with people in general, but I enjoy being around my friends a lot and am often described as “extremely talkative.”

b) If you could change one thing about your personality, what would it be? Why?

I hate the fact that I’m sort of unmotivated at times despite my presumed “passion” for that field. It’s evident that I really like what I’m doing, but for me to get up and say “alright, I’m going to do this now” is fairly hard. I’m an aspiring computer scientist with a huge interest in math, and even though I know that I love programming and reading up about math fields, I still don’t really do it, and the guilt bites at me a lot, so in general that’s pretty annoying. I’m a very driven person - in my head I have a lot of goals and wishes and ideal situations laid out that I go over a lot - but I don’t always translate that to reality well, and it often frustrates me.

Question 9- How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?

Even though I realize that gut feelings aren’t that logical/based on facts, empirical evidence suggests that they’re fairly accurate. I go by my gut feeling a lot - everything from how to approach a math proof (it’s actually pretty useful) to whether I think a person is fake or not.

Question 10- a) What activities energize you most?

Honestly, achieving things in general. If I hit a goal that I set for myself I feel very happy. I also like programming and math, and also just being with my close friends in general.

b) What activities drain you most? Why?

Being around crowds, small talk, exercising/physical activities, doing things that genuinely don’t interest me, talking to people who honestly don't get the logic behind an argument despite me (or any of my friends) laying it out extremely clearly in front of them

Question 11- What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?

Generally my beliefs, my thoughts, and most of my emotions/feelings/self doubts. I also sort of repress parts of my stoic self, if that makes any sense? There are moments in which I talk like I'm excited, but if I'm being honest with myself I don't actually care all that much.

Extra

I’ve done quite a few MBTI tests in the past and many of them have typed me as INTJ. It does sound like me, in many ways, but so do other types…I’ve also been typed as all the NT types and INFJ by different tests, if that is relevant in any way.

This was long… I feel like the way I’ve answered these questions don’t cover entirely the contradictions I pointed out before that led to the confusion about my type, and I haven't explored parts of myself properly (being honest about exactly how I feel is a weird-ish feeling) but we’ll see how that goes!