A night in hell.

The other night I smoked for my first time in 6 months. After I smoked I went to go pick up my girlfriend (I wasn't driving) by the time I got home I had been to my girlfriends house and picked her up a minimum of 8 times. I would pick her up then get in the car and we would drive down the road until the light right before the highway on ramp. Then I would be at the beginning of her driveway to pick her up again. Once I realized what was going on I tried to talk to the other members of my party to calm my self down but when I asked them if we had done this before they said yes and I was like "what do you mean yes!" Then I slipped back into the loop... it took incredible focus to realize what was happening but no matter what I did I could never stay aware of the loop long enough to get onto the highway. After this had happened what I think was 4 times I started to realize the loop sooner and at one point I said to my self "this is hell" not really expecting anyone to respond but the driver said "yes" and I looked at her and realized that she wasn't just talking but had responded to my statement so I said "this really is hell isn't it?" She said yes and I began to panic like I never have before and was trying as hard as I could to stay aware long enough to get on the highway but before I knew it I was at the driveway again The time after that point was much worse for me the next time I went into her house everything was just as it always was but her younger brother had a chain locked around his ankle that he was dragging around and I felt incredible amounts of sadness and fear and so I said nothing as we left and got in the car to leave again. This time I didn't try to stay aware hoping it was a dream or something but it kept happening until I realized again what was happening and then I tried focusing more and got mad and talking out loud again said so god is real and this is hell and we are here forever (getting in the car again to leave) to which the driver responded yes (in an annoyed/sad tone) and and I decided fuck it atleast I get to see my girlfriend forever so I accepted it and this helped me for one or two more loops I honestly don't know but at one point I I got in the car to leave again and said "fuck it let's do it again" and I felt ok I felt ready But after a while of this I realized that I couldn't keep this up forever and started the loop again and excepted it again but then it set in that it doesn't matter if I except it or ignore it or fight it or try to change it THIS IS MY REALITY FROM NOW ON FOR THE REST OF EXISTENCE and I couldn't handle it man I just started thinking that death would be better than doing it again but then I realized that if I killed my self nothing would change I would still be stuck in the loop and so I decided I had to try and sleep just sleep for all time and so that's what I tried to do

I didn't get out of the car but if I didn't get out someone else would and then we would keep going so I just tried to block it all out I didn't talk to anyone I didn't move I didn't do anything and the loop kept going and I lost track of time and what was happening but at some point I heard "hey we are home wake up" (wasn't asleep I was faking it) but I didn't believe them because they had tried to wake me up for a couple loops so I just sat there until I heard the door open next to me and I was pulled out of the car but since I didn't believe it I just kind of fell out ... once I hit the ground my brother started laughing (no one laughs in hell) so I fought with my self to stand and he walked me until I felt the bright LEDs of the bedroom on me and opened my eyes. I just fell on the bed and went to sleep.

That was the most terrifying thing that I have ever experienced and had to ask my driver if I had talked to her while we drove home and she said no that I had just went to sleep (I was pretending to remember) and then we just got home and I went to sleep.

This experience has shaken me and I decided to smoke the following nights just to prove I can and I questioned my reality the day after and a little into the next and now as I write this I still feel uneasy I never want to experience that again can anyone relate to this or know anyone who has had this happen?