What kind of man pressures you into anal sex then sighs with disappointment when you use the safe word?

To be fair, the only reason I've ever even considered trying anal sex with him was because he cheated on me and I was tired of feeling inadequate. Anything to keep you. I know this sounds ridiculous, but at this point I just need to type everything out so I can see for myself how fucking insane this relationship really is.

I made a list of all the things I'm going to miss about him but you know what was longer? The list of things I won't. We were always one comment, one conversation or one safe word away from imploding. And... I'm done. I'm moving on. I'm taking control of my life again and it's liberating.