Fuck this

I guess one thing that I've realized is that my parents would be crazy even if they weren't in the cult but this cult magnified their flaws and I'm so lost I don't want to get out of bed.

I got back to school soon and of course my mom has to sit me down and give me a talk about being my " true self" and apparently my " true self" is a baptized publisher if Jehovah sonI have to show that at school. She wants me to be authentic and not leave a double life and stop lying to her and my dad ( only lie because I get screamed at if I do tell the truth). I've tried to show them my authors self and it just ends up with them printing information from the borg off and then yelling at me about how I didn't study enough.

Whatever once I'm back in school I'll be doing school all day then homework for a few hours and then work in the evenings. I no longer want a relationship with them. I've tried to get social services to help me but they could care less as long as it isn't physical abuse it's fine. I'm so sick of being cornered and yelled at and lectured for hours I'm so tired of them implying that I'm crazy. School is my only saving grace now...