Saturday

Hey guys,

I really don't know what to do here, or what to write as I've never made a post before. I have been on and off anti-depressant medication since I was 17 and am now nearly 22.

My grandad recently passed about a month ago and it hit me really hard, I struggle with anxiety a lot and didn't really have many close friends to talk to about it all, and 2 weeks ago today I tried to end my own life. My mum found me sitting on my floor with a knife and some pills and had to physically restrain me, the police were called etc...

Fast forward to Saturday, and I was out with my work colleagues when one of them sexually abused me. I was due back to work today but I quit this morning, and when I told my boyfriend he left me on the grounds of 'You're smarter than this'. I was really, stupidly drunk at the time and remember telling this guy to stop, and that I just wanted to sleep. Is this my fault?

Thanks