The aftermath if you lose your battle with addiction.

Hello,

About 10 months ago the worst thing that ever happened to me occurred. I lost my Mother to her addiction of what we thought at the time was just alcohol, but was later revealed that she was abusing painkillers and other substances as well.

Before her addiction she was a wonderful Mother. Loving, supportive and what I thought at the time was the best damn mom in the world. In her final years she was angry, spiteful and cruel. At times I didn't recognize the women I was looking at.

My Mother was unable to win her battle with addiction. Hell, she just barely go to the point where she admitted to us she had a problem. A month later she was in the Hospital for liver failure. Two weeks after that she was dead. She was 47.

She had been in the hospital 3 times before the last and each time the doctor warned her not to drink. She would hand wave it away and say the doctors didn't know what they were talking about. She died in agony and we all had to watch while her body was slowly poisoned by toxins her body could no longer cleanse.

My mothers addiction has tainted and corrupted her very memory for my family and me. It is so hard to think of her before her addiction took hold. I am so angry at her and sometimes hate her for putting her family through that. All my most recent memories were of here in despair, anger and regret. The Trauma of watching her slowly kill herself will be with me for the rest of my days.

I share this terrible story in hopes that it may save someone someday. It is literally the only good thing that could possibly come from these events. Please know that if you are fighting you are doing the right thing, keep going! Don't give up. For those who may be reading and have so far been unwilling to tackle the problem of addiction. Please find the strength to do so! Whatever the cost of the battle it is much less then dying slow in a shitty hospital bed while all your loved ones look on in helplessness and have to bare witness to your decay and the lifelong trauma that goes with it.

TL;DR My Mother died from her addiction. Please don't follow her path. Get help and overcome your addiction by any means necessary. If not for you...then for your loved ones.