Needed to express my feelings

I am not sure how to say this, so I think I'll just write what comes to mind.

I feel helpless and trapped. I feel like a failure to my wife and to myself. No matter how hard I work, it's never enough to pay our bills and save money. Things are getting more and more stressful and my thoughts are getting darker each day. I try to hold onto why makes me happy to get me through it, but it's difficult. I love my wife, but sometimes I feel like I want her to leave me. I want her to be happy and I worry that I'm bringing her down.

I know in reality that I'm not making my wife unhappy. And that I'm fortunate to be able to pay the bills. But we can't afford a place to live. We've cut out almost every expense we can without shutting out everything entirely. I finally left my horrible job for something better, but I'm making less because of benefit costs. So now I feel like I'm being punished for getting out of a high stress job. I can't seem to win. I can't seem to provide for my wife and myself. And I just want it all to end. I'm not going to hurt myself or do anymore drastic, but sometimes I just wish everything would end.