It's the summer holidays and I'm starting my "day" at 8:40PM

I feel like a bag of crushed dicks. Haven't been outside these holidays other than that terrible wedding I posted about. I slept for 17 hours last "night" because I didn't wanna return to the real world. I also keep getting motivated to actually do stuff but then when the time comes I just don't! Then proceed to hate myself even more. This fucking sucks...