To her

I'm sorry I didn't take you out more I'm sorry it felt like I didn't pay attention to you I'm sorry I gave up I'm sorry I didn't fight for you to stay I'm sorry I didn't put the effort in to see you more after you moved I'm sorry about that time I made you feel unimportant I'm sorry about a lot of stuff I'm sorry you had to deal with my immaturity I'm sorry about a lot of things, that's because those moments are all I think about. When we first broke up, I didn't understand. Things were going so well and it just came out of no where. I spent the first 6 months just wondering what happened hoping you'd change your mind. But now that I'm older, I realize it was just because of me. I was some kid who thought I knew how to have a girlfriend. You deserved better, and you realized that. I really hope you get it. But you, you handled everything the way a girlfriend should've. The way a person would've. And so that's why I can't be mad at you. The time we spent in abq with you was probably the best time of my life and that's how I would've wanted to spend the rest of my life. I know now that that future is impossible, and why I hold on to hope that your love for me will come back, I don't know. For its something that just won't happen. I hate that I expect to see a text from you everytime I get home from work. I hate that you took me off Facebook (or maybe it was me but I can't do anything about it now) I hate that you moved away. But I'll never hate you. Finally, I'm starting to realize that this heartbreak is good for me. The next person I get involved with, I know that I will be different and I'll make that person the happiest I can. I know how to act and how not to act, although I'm sorry you had to be the victim of my trial and error. Thank you for the 3 and half years of love and support. I'm glad I know what love feels like because of you and that I can feel this way about a person after the love goes away. Thinking about it, I wouldn't change a thing. I wish I could tell you all this.

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