Things haven't been going well.

I've dealt with depression for the last 20 years, and usually I have a handle on it. But these last 6 months have been really difficult, and my self esteem has taken a big hit, and I've been really depressed for a while now.

I just feel so inadequate. I am part of an outrigger canoeing team, and the social interaction is really difficult. There was a bad scene a couple of months ago, and I haven't recovered, and now I just feel like a failure. And then I feel like more of a failure because I just can't seem to get over it.

It doesn't help that I'm feeling the same at work and at home. I can't seem to get away from it.