So today I watched my straight best friend, whom I have loved for two years, cry because of a breakup...

That moment was just incredibly hard- to watch someone shed tears for another as you try to keep your own feeling ,trying to be supportive when you have no support, yet there was I...Truth is I am just depressed, I need to talk, to just freaking express myself- I live in a Muslim family (in Islam homosexuality is punishable by death) and our society as a whole is conservative so I don't have anyone to talk to. Today was just an emotional roller coaster ride for me, just madness- holding the person you love in your arms, crying, knowing you will have no arms to cry in. During my whole 18 years of life I kept feelings caged, now they just erupt roaring... It seems I am ranting, but no: I just need help, someone to talk. Please