Motivation to Work

Hi there. I've been posting on here lately about how my new medication has been helping tremendously and how much better I'm doing. Yet with all of that Im still struggling to be productive with anything beyond my day job. I work at a shop and have a lot of fun there which I'm very lucky but my passion is video. I do freelance videography for musicians and local bussiness on the side hoping to make something more of it. Right now I have a long term project where I do effects work for these short educational videos. Its ideal because there are no tremendous deadlines which means I can do them whenever I want. I feel spoiled for saying this but I just can't do it. I did one video last month and Im supposed to have a followup with my Director so I need to have at least something done and even that hasn't gotten me anywhere. Any advice from you guys on how to be a little more productive? This feels so fucking stupid. I mean I guess I can't say Im doing great, just better than suicidal. My new medication is supposed to really kick in this coming week but I don't know if this is part of my illness or simply a character flaw.