Some things:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n8JbQkSLcVc -- here's a couple songs if ye liketh.

https://www.amazon.com/Meditations-New-Translation-Marcus-Aurelius/dp/0812968255 -- read this fucking book. It has calmed me down and given me stoic/mature understanding like nothing else has in my life.. I want so badly for people to read this book.

Anybody in the colorado springs-peyton-falcon area? We could hangout sometime..

I've been doing some thinking about the last schizophrenic post I made last time, and calling me hedonistic was totally valid. I've grown up a bit.

Also in admittance to the fact that I was one of those Alan watt's internet disciples. If anybody else out there is watching Watts and Mckenna regularly.. they will offer you ZERO answers, but only prolong the activity of questioning and feeling 'farout'.. its a waste of time and it will leave you just as directionless as you were before. The basic product of their lectures is SOCIETY/THE MIND IS WRONG, AND DESPITE YOUR IMMATURITY AND CLEAR LACK OF DIRECTION YOU'RE THE RIGHT ONE. HA, we all need ACTUAL mentors and direction these days. Learn about stoic philosophy and give yourself a calm determination towards what you want to MAKE, TO BE LESS SELFISH, HOW CAN YOU SIMPLIFY YOUR LIFE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, AND LEARN TO PERCIEVE THAT EVERY MOMENT IS IN ADMITTANCE TO HARMONY AND THAT YOU'RE COMPETENT IN EVERY MOMENT TO MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION (so long as you're in neutral favor to THE TRUTH) AND MAKE OTHERS LIVES BETTER AS WELL.

Alright that's it. Also as far as the elephant in society goes, the whole social justice problems.. Just never fear that you don't have rationality on your side, and be critical of the truth, not THEM. They're just mistaken.

Also Sam Hyde looks good, in a I kinda want him to fuck me kind of way, idk.. its a BEAR look.

Peace, all in all, read that fucking book! Seriously. First person to give me their shipping address I'll buy them a fucking copy. polybond15@gmail.com. '

also sorry in advance to the annoyance of this post.