Feeling discouraged.

I've already gone from 220 to 195. I feel better, I feel like I look better, blah blah. But I'm still considered obese, and crunched the numbers: to not be 'obese' I have to go before my original goal of 180 (I'm 5'4) and to not be considered overweight I have to be 140 freaking pounds, and that seems WAY skinnier than I want to be. I don't want to have a flat stomach and zero body fat. I have huge hips/boobs (and not just because i'm fat) and I think I'll look like a cartoon character. I want to be a bit chubby.

How to I find the motivation to get to a 'healthy' weight when I feel like that healthy weight isn't where I want my weight to be? I feel like the only way I'm be taken seriously about my chronic pain is if I get to that point, but that'd be my only motivation.