Potential relapse

Woke up early morning needing to piss. Stayed in bed for a second and a thought snuck into my head. It gave me a boner and I killed the thought but when I got up I accidentally hit my boner with my hand for a second. Now I feel all weird, I may have leaked some precum and it feels almost like a relapse. Penis feels weird and I have anxiety in my chest back. Could this be a relapse? That would suck. I really didn't mean to do anything.