Well here I am, still me, don't know much more then that.

Finally realized I was a girl like Tuesday night. A lot of stuff has been going on and when the final straw happened, I just realized and admitted it. Now I'm hella scared and hella happy.

But the thing is, I'm a 40 yr old with a wife of 15 years and a 6 year old daughter. Oh, and a very public job, and I kinda look like a gorilla.

I've never had any major dysphoria or dysmorphia, but now I'm starting to realize that I have had minor things. I'm kinda a big person and hate exercise. I "don't care about this body", because I don't care about this body. Now I want to exercise, like, a lot.

The one thing that sold it for me is a stupid minor thing. I've chewed my fingernails to the quick since before I could remember. It's just been my constant nervous tick. After I told myself and then told my wife, I haven't chewed my fingernails one single time.

I feel at peace and centered.

(This is my first post, if I said anything wrong, or omitted anything I apologize. Please educate me, I'm thirsty for knowledge.)