I've become closer to God

I noticed that when I move away from God and towards my sins, my life unravels. My PMO is caused by loneliness, hopelessness, and forced isolation. Recently, I quit one job because it was affecting my sleep and it seemed as if there wasn't any growth. My sleep and overall health has improved. I've been praying about growth and feel God is moving in me.

Recently I posted a joke on Facebook claiming my newfound muscle mass was caused by using steroids. Clearly it was a joke. My general manager texts me to take it down and that we will have a meeting. Met with my other manager and HR and said they will "send it up the chain" and we have a meeting Tuesday at 2pm. I'm prepared for being fired, but honestly, this whole situation showed me how Fapping changes your brain. I am drafting a letter of resignation just in case. It was stupid, but I am owning up to it. I have a few friends who I am calling my accountability partners, and I am nearly 24 hours without fapping. I feel clarity, drive, and the 'dry' feeling is going away. I'm not focused on multi-day streaks, just on the present.

I truly believe that pornography is making men numb and it has cost me friends, jobs, a great woman, and my drive. However, my faith has been restored in God and I am going to let him heal me. You guys are very helpful and this thread is helling to save my soul. I will let you guys know what happens. It's time to live a life of purity and virility. PMO is the same as heroin, pills, booze, or cocaine. It's time to be clean.