My jounry (33 days then , OH I RELAPSED)

I'm 24 yo guy, I start the pmo at young age I was 12 and it takes all the way since. I always feel like something wrong with pmo, tried many times with short streaks untill I realised I have to move more forward and start nofap. I quit smoking, weed and alcohol successfully before I start the nofap so I had the (3 months till now on cold turkey) Month ago I started the journey I felt the benifits and the flatline and I really enjoyed it but once I had a breakup with my gf I couldn't handle the gap in my heart and shit I relapsed once , then second and third was before writing that post. I really feel pathetic feeling I wanna drop it all and back to the shit life I was living but that is just a black thought I know it gonna gone So I'm gonna start my counter again , going to gym next week and trying to get myself up instead of relapse again. Just want to thank that community for your support , pray for me 🙏🏼