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r/stopdrinking•
saello

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Drinking lost it's luster quite some time ago for me. I tell myself daily I will not drink today but after work is done the first stop I make is at the liqour store. I don't drink as much as I once did but there is still that constant call to have a drink (which usually means several). I have had stints of sobriety where I have gone months without a drink but then for one reason or another I end out having a drink which leads to months of daily drinking. Drinking does not interfere with my life in the sense that I am never late for work, I perform/complete all duties required of me at work (and more), and I have no financial issues due to it. My social life is non-existent, I get home at the end of the day and stay barricaded alone in my house with a beer in my hand until it is time for bed, I wake up rinse and repeat. I am not sure what exactly I'm looking for by posting here beyond just wondering if this is the norm for others. As I mentioned in the first sentence of this post drinking has lost it's luster. There is no shine to it anymore, it only feels like maintenance at this point. I guess that is all I have for now, Thanks for listening.

Posted Sep 21, 2017, 11:21 PM UTC

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TheWoodBotherer95 days•

Welcome Aboard!

I went through roughly that stage too, as a lot of us do... I thought I was fine, until one day I very much wasn't!

Do you feel that there are any negative consequences of your drinking?

I presume you are concerned about the amount or regularity of your drinking, and being unable to stay stopped on your own - this is also very common, but it's much easier to achieve when you connect with other problem drinkers and talk about what you're going through...

This sub is great support for that!

Drinking can lead to a lot of self-isolation; I certainly spent a lot of time alone in a room, drinking by myself.... it isn't normal, and I'm much happier now that I don't drink at all...

Hope you'll stick around and let us know how you're doing? It's a great way to get your thoughts in order, and explore some ways to make positive life choices without alcohol!

Best wishes,

Woody :>)>

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saelloOP•

Thank you for the kind words and support.

Do you feel that there are any negative consequences of your drinking?

Mainly being isolated. I am an introvert as it is with only a few people I associate with but I am becoming increasing more isolated from them as well.

Thank you again for the insight and support

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TheWoodBotherer95 days•

You're welcome!

I'm naturally a bit of an introverted loner too, which is perfectly fine, but adding alcohol to that led me to some pretty dark places in the end...

There's a whole world of interesting experiences and people out there waiting, it's a shame to waste huge swathes of time cooped up somewhere drinking on one's own and feeling gloomy!

Keep us posted....

Best wishes,

Woody :>)>

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quirkytown29 days•

I felt the same way as you. No consequences to my drinking, so why not keep doing it?

But I was kidding myself. While my job/family/friends were fine, my weight, fitness & health were not.

I am already down 5 pounds in less than 3 weeks since I stopped drinking and generally feel much better. I am also not worried about (further) damaging my liver or other internal organs.

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nonunoriginalish380 days•

Welcome!

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DrBloor46 days•

You've taken the time to make an account, no then post, it's clear at least part of you wants to change. I know what you mean about the lustre, I felt Ike I was going through the motions for a few months before I quit. It's easy to put off too, looks daunting because those evening beers have become part, if not all if your evening routine. I wanted to make a change too, at least enough of me did, enough to find this place, read some stories then take the plunge. You can do, if I can I'm sure you can too.

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cavytron48 days•

Evening drinking kept me from reading, something I had really enjoyed earlier in life. After a couple of drinks I was responsible enough not to drive.... So that kept my wings clipped for the rest of the night. No hobbies, no interests, just drinking and TV. I find when I am not drinking that I go outside more to do a little gardening or take a walk. I read books & magazines, and go to the store or out for a coffee if want since I can drive. Or tinker in the basement with electronic stuff, a former hobby. Not drinking has opened up a lot of evening possibilities that didn't even dawn on me before.

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doughnutsplz11 days•

"Lost its luster " for certain . These past weeks I've been thinking maybe if I drink when I really don't want to ( which my head said ) my body wanted it more , maybe I'll get enough and hate it ? From what everybody is saying here now that's a good thing . It means your preparing to stop ? I too was isolated , getting drunk alone and becoming more and more out of touch with life . Today is day 1 for me , I'm here with a group of people who care and understand . 1 day suddenly not alone !! And glad you are here too!!!

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Trafficdiver427 days•

I would be afraid of, on my death bed, looking back and seeing that I wasted my life in a routine of work then sedation. What else in life do you want to do? What are your dreams and goals that alcohol, and the isolation it has engendered, has made impossible?

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