It's hard to admit, but nmom molested me as a child.

For a long time, I tried to justify it in my head. I tried to rationalize it as something else, but the details don't add up or sound normal.

When I was 5, nmom told me I was 'sick' and needed medicine. Not medicine you take in a medicine cup, but medicine you put on 'privates'. (I'm female)

I can recall her cutting the light out and applying a cold gel "down there". Only she was rubbing one area really hard, and it felt as though it went on for a long time.

I remember later during a bath, I touched the area she was touching and discovered masturbation the same day. :/

It makes my skin crawl to recall it. Truly disturbing and disgusting.