My girlfriend dumped me because of stress: "I'm finally happy"

13 month anniversary she broke up with me. It's long distance so I can't see her, her family doesn't know about me. She's going through depression and a lot of stress so she broke up with me to relieve some stress in her mind. She said she's happy, I never loved her, she's grateful, but I know she's ignorant and doesn't want to feel pain.

I've tried for a month, I'm still trying. She said it's over but she didn't break up with me out of lack of love or respect. She broke down and she is still broken.

But the way she's being makes me want to leap off my balcony because I can't take this anymore. I did everything for her, with her, love her, and this is what happens. I'm ttexting a help line at 6 today. I don't want to give up, I won't. But I also want to die, when I never wanted to before.