How does dating work if you’re ftm? *Only interested in women.

I get really sad and angry sometimes that I’m ftm. I do feel like a man but I feel like one who is deformed or flawed sometimes. Most women are interested in cis men. Makes sense. But as someone trans I can’t just go talk to a girl, get her number, go on a date like a cis guy could. I’m different and 99% of women do not want to date a trans guy. Even if I’ve had bottom surgery. Not criticizing that, just making a point. I get mad because I don’t have a low self confidence and I’m very comfortable talking to women, but to most of them I’m excluded from their dating pool.

I’ve tried just regular approaches with zero percent success and I’ve tried just getting to know girls but then once we get close I get the “oh I kinda like you but I’m not into trans men”. No success with dating apps. This actually feels like a curse. I’m comfortable with myself. Athletic, tall, healthy. I truly do feel cursed and left out of another thing in life. I want to get married someday, have kids, but idk how that’s gonna happen unless I buy a wife from somewhere.

I really need some advice from other ftm guys who date women. Idk how the dynamic is with gay guys and they’re different from women anyway. I just hate how cis guys can easily find 10 girls to date in a year but I can’t even find one for one date.