How to stop feeling awful.

My fiance was the love of my life. Everyday he would tell me how much he loved me, more each day. Those words were pretty hollow as he left me so quickly without even letting me get a sentence out in the most harshest way possible.

Last words

"You've got my number" spat at me with total hatred.

I know he doesn't care about me so why is me that me that feels so awful? The day before he was telling me how much he loved me.

I want to get up and try and have a normal life but I can't because I'm a big ball of tears. I just want to be able to take some kind of drug that will make me forget the last 7 years of my life.

How do I get my shit together?!

Thank you reddit xxx