I was acutely aware of myself as I lay alone in my bed.

I am a single man with long hair.

Today, as I rested my cheek on my pillow, my hair was out to one side; my head faced the other way. Uncomfortable, I turned to the other side. My face nuzzled into my own hair and I was reminded of falling asleep next to someone I used to love.

I am deeply sad and very, very alone.