Relapse: this is ridiculous

I'm so frustrated man.

Lately I've been in a relapse cycle of 1 week streaks. I usually relapse on Fridays or Saturdays then follow that up with a second relapse or sometimes a third that same weekend.

After my last relapse last week, I decided to put in all the days I've relapsed on an spreadsheet. Turns out I've relapsed a shameful 40% of my days, even though it's only been weekends and Fridays. I decided to do something different and try ultra hard.

And I did. this week, I had the greatest willpower I've ever seen in myself. Everything happened because I wanted it to, and I didn't succumb to my desires. I didn't relapse Friday night because my willpower and Iman was still good.

However, my body doesn't like this. What has happened is that my body has formed some sort of a clock where if I don't relapse on Friday and instead go to sleep, it wakes me up at 1:30 to 2:00 in the morning, which is when i just can't operate correctly. It doesn't let me sleep, so I get stuck.

It did wake me up, and I managed to go 30 minutes before succumbing to my disgusting desires. I had the highest point of willpower in my life; I could've gone a month if only I didn't wake up in the middle of the night.

But I did, this is annoying me so much. Even when I give it my best, I still fail. This has frustrated me to the point where I want to give up.

I've made a promise to myself not to relapse for the rest of this weekend and hopefully I stay true to my oath. But guys, what do I do about night time??? I know that I will wake up next Friday in the middle of the night with the same issue, so what do I do???