So close

Girls, I'm super close to a craigslist encounter. I can feel myself craving being stuffed and having cum dumped in me over and over. Problem is, I'm a relatively straight man, dominant normally and I like it this way.

I really only enjoy the thought of an extremely feminine sissy fucking me, because women are arousing to me and I'm not attracted to actual men, just being filled and swallowing from a dick.

It's just the dick, if that makes sense. So usually convincing sissies are convincing so they can be submissive. I don't enjoy cross dressing or feminine things besides prostate stimulation, being filled, swallowing, and getting creampied.

Not sure what I am but I can say I don't get aroused by manly physical traits other than the penis itself, but I do want the penis. So what do I do? Im afraid I'll let a man fuck me in a slutty state of arousal but regret it because the man himself turns me off.

I just have a cum and anal fetish.