I dont know what to do about my drug crazy mother anymore.

It is currently 1 am and I am unable to sleep and probably wont sleep at all despite a busy day tomorrow because my mother who is insanely high is acting incredibly crazy right now.

My mom has had a meth problem since she was a teenager. Once she recovers from being high she will go sober for about a month or 2 and then use again. I ask her constantly all the time to get freaking help but she never wants to. She makes me so freaking mad!!! She had the audacity to tell me that she thinks its okay to do it every once in a while. Just in this year alone she has gotten so high to the point of mental breakdown 2 or 3 times this year. She never learns her freaking lesson. She is going to lose everything again. I'm freshly 18 years old, no job yet, can't even drive, and living with her. I depend too much on her. I freaking wish I was in a different situation where I wouldnt have to deal with her but I'm not. I swear I will call the police on her if she tries messing with any of my stuff or wants to get violent with me I don't even care she has already messed everything up. She was already screaming at me to get out of the car when I told her I wws going in there to try and getting some freaking sleeo because I can hear her crazy insane self from my room!!!!

Either my mom will officialy lose her mind off the drugs and I lose her forever, or after losing everything, A GAIN, she'll go sober for another month or 2 before she decides to lose her mind again. She was diagonsed with paranoid schizophrenia due to drug usage. It activates into full effect when she gets too high. I seriously hate my mom sometimes and sometimes I think if she were to die, even though I'd be beyond devasted and lost, at least I wouldnt have to worry about her anymore. Thanks a lot mom. Don't come crying to me when you wsnt to feel bad about your drug usage. Why dont you put in freaking effort and go get the help you need instead of cancelling appointments and avoiding it. I hate my mom so much when shes like this I just want to scream at her that shes a lunatic that does not care about my feelings at all but of course I'm not going to I'm just really sick and tired of you mom I hate you mom!!!!!