Day 4. Depressing.

Ugh. Today I was kinda just in the dumps. I missed my first class (cause I over slept) and after my last class I got back to my room and laid idly on my floor for about 3 hours not being productive, sulking in my sad and uncomfortable feelings. Knowing your life sucks when high is numbing. Knowing it sucks when sober is depressing. Even if I did smoke it would really be for nothing. It wouldn't make my life not suck. It would just make me comfortable with it sucking. I don't want my life to suck. Today I just realized that weed isn't going to change my life. I have to.