Im panicking

A guy from the past just popped on my freaking phone in such difficult triggering time Im doing my freaking best to move on from the past im breaking every pattern and this guuuy just I feel sick i cant breathe I don't know how people do it deal with their biggest problems on their own im panicking my head is pressured and i just want to cry

I don't want to ever relapse i don't want to ever relapse